The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

No one else I know is probably watching this Drama that I've been following but anyways, I'll just go ahead and talk about it. The Secret Life of the American Teenager sure seems like The Secret Life of a particular Filipino girl I know. I know that when you hear that sentence, some of you are going to assume its me... but I really and honestly so don't mean me. My dear cousin, aged 20 got pregnant (accidentally or carelessly enough) and just recently gave birth to a baby boy named "Keith". He's my nephew I guess, and the same exact thing is happening to the girl in the drama. I so need to talk to my cousin. I think she might be having a harder time than she's letting on and I want to help out in any way I can. We've been trying to get in touch since she got pregnant and well, let me just put it this way.... I haven't seen her in over a year. She wants me to be the kids' godmother. She's planning on getting married! My baby cousin, has her ...

When I was younger I thought I was going to be a writer. I was so interested in the way people reacted to situations, and how the reaction to that same situation changed when other people were in the room. I liked to step back from the socializing and watch how people interacted and try to deduce what the person was thinking. Of course I could never be sure what anybody is thinking. No one can, but I always wished that I knew the hidden agendas. I could only guess what people are thinking from the spindles of truth that dwindle down from subconscious thoughts into conscious action. The 15th episode of the 5 th season of House MD was epic. It talks about religion and truths and I just think that seeing House, an atheist, interact with a Priest, who has lost his faith, is just pretty darn cool! "Coincidences are God's way of staying anonymous." I wonder if there is any truth in that... of course, even if there was an absolute truth, no one has a way of finding it out. T...

According to Felicia's list there are around 66 Drugs to memorize for B Pharm. With a hesitant sense of triumph, I am able to identify 40 in the list. I could pass. I might pass, its going to be a close call. When I said, "identify", I just meant that if I was asked for the drug class, I'd probably belt out a 75% correct answer. That's not so bad eh? But if you asked me what the heck the drug is for, or its MOA, I probably have a 55% chance of getting it right. If you asked me to compare two drugs... well, I'd probably get 30% right, depending on the sub topic. Topics 4.2 and 4.3 are my best bet. I am so FREAKED OUT ! Its the 12th hour and I'm sweating bullets. I focused on topic 4, the rest... well, things aren't looking so good. If I could have a wish for my birthday, it would be to pass B Pharm without having to take the supplementary paper. The rest of the subjects, I think I can handle on my own, but for B Pharm, I think I need divine help. Pret...

Sem 2.2 is almost over. There are just a few loose ends that I have to tie up and those loose ends include the three major exams on the way. In a way, this is the beggining of the end of poly. Year 3 is soon to start and I'm pretty jived about it. I just have to live through this rough patch for a bit. I'm writing this to get some closure , because if I dwell on the situation, I'm going to start resenting some things. I don't want that to happen because I like being in an amicable social atmosphere. A few things happened this sem, some peoples' true colors came out. Some were brilliant and unexpected, while some fell short of my expectations. This sem has been a really good lesson for me. I know who my real friends are and I know who probably won't remember my name in a few years time. The lesson is, "Don't judge a book by its cover". I've made a few friends and lost some. Things in school are interesting, though not as pleasant as it seems....

Two awesome things happened today! I got pretty decent marks for the PIA quiz but.... The "highlight" of my day was the P Mic interview. Why? Because it was strangely surreal. Just imagine, five, year-two students in a little room with Dr AL. Everyone STARTED OFF fairly tense. The first questions were asked by Dr AL and there were a few nervous smiles and giggles. Dr AL actually said the words "answer or die" to S. After the first round of questioning it was S once again who was the victim. She kept forgetting the question and in mid sentence said "huh?" mouth hanging open at AL. AL found this terribly funny and tried to suppress a smile. AL tried to repeat his question but.... Apparently he had very little self control because a few moments later, his smile broke into melodious laughter. Seeing this, the other victims, myself, Fel, Nick and J lost our composure as well. To put it simply, the tiny space was filled with a cacophony of guffaws. With tears i...

Fall Out Boy just had a concert and I think that a hell of a lot of people enjoyed it. I didn't though. I couldn't go- bah. Yesterday, my P Mic group had to go gaga to refine the P Mic report and make it nice and tidy. There were many last minute details that had to be buttoned down and a certain someone made it worse- this certain someone had entered the computer lab with unfinished work which I still had to proofread and edit to fit the page limit! Gosh that was stressful. B Pharm caught me by surprise. I did not expect a quiz! I thought it was today but Ms Hor pushed it forward. Why would someone push a quiz forward?! Apparently, I failed 2 B Pharm quizzes. How am I to survive this subject!? I did get a pretty decent grade for another 2 quizzes though. Anyways, on to good news, I got a new phone. A Sony Ericsson Walkman phone. It's the phone that everyone says self destructs but I don't mind. My Nokia 5300 needed a break from all of the abuse I've been dishing o...

I feel like I'm wasting time. I think I may be having a premature mid life crisis and that I need to change gears and do something new. I'm sick of coming to school and I am seriously fantasizing about dropping out. It just takes the life out of me and I'm not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm loving 18 days by Saving Abel

Its been a short but busy day. My morning was craming for the BPharm quiz, so much so that the whole marketing tutorial just passed by without me absorbing anything at all. That's so going to bite me it the butt when the exam comes. We had an IPT meeting and a P mic meeting. Project deadlines are acoming! Nooo! More stress! Anyways, I am proud to say that I am sticking to my new year's resolution of being more organized. I am the proud owner of a planner. Believe it or not, Its actually making me more stressed because, I know what tests and deadlines are coming so I now actually have more time to panic and worry about it. My Procrastination is something I have to work on next, so that I can decrease the amout of worry and stress. Tomorrow: -APEL at 8- We're coming to school early to be told off about our bad grades! -IPT meeting -P Mic quiz 2- The bane of my existence -IPT PBL presentation- In front of the whole cohort -Organize Portfolio for CSAS- A very unpleasant subject...