The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

I am thoroughly stressed and it is not about school. School does have a high contributing factor though but there are other things going on at home. Apparently my mum no longer has the pair of bangles that she loves to wear and some of you may know why. I guess you can say that I'm pretty sad because never in a million years did I ever see this coming. My lovely little house in the Philippines might be in danger of being repo-ed and I hope that doesn't happen. I love that little house, its really the first building that I considered was my home. Right now I'm pretty absorbed by school work especially PMic not because I like it, but because it is a nice distraction from that ugly place in my mind. I wish I could get a job, even if it was part time. Okay, I know I said that I was sad... I guess I'm not. I'm miserable. I feel guilty for spending even the smallest cent. I shouldn't have signed up to buy the text book. :(

The first week of school is far from over (project meetings etc.)and the workload is a far cry from what I'm used to. Normally I'd prefer having projects compared to coursework but this term is far from what I'm used to. Top that off with problems at home and I've got myself a very stressful week. The folks aren't home but somehow with so many things going on, I haven't been able to soak in their momentary lack of input in my life.

Is been good days with the ladies and yes, that includes Yas as well. We went to the airport and ate Popeyes just like in year 1. Nostalgia much?

Yesterday was spent at the symposium and the reunion of classmates took place. It was cool. There are pictures but I won't upload them now. Speaking of pictures, I have to say that I am extremely dissapointed at the fact that Hotmail and Yahoomail do not allow the attachment of files greater that 10mb. Sigh. Today was spent mostly sleeping which is surprisingly unusual because I went to bed early the other day. Anyways, the main event of today was that I got to chat with an old friend and that everything is pretty much great back in the Philippines. I can't believe I'm saying this but in spite of the school holidays, I want to go on a -what else? I want to go on a holiday just to escape for a while. Life, here, truly sucks.

THE KING OF BLOG ENTRIES Okay, so I haven't been blogging for a while, but then again, who has? I look at my friends' blogs and well...lets just say that everybody seems to be getting lazier about writing. We got our schedules today. I got Marketing as my elective. I'm not too happy about that. I really really wanted to get the Clinical trials as an elective, but alas. Bright side: Incompetent isn't in my class. Fel and Ayu are in my class... so at least there is no shortage of peeps to talk to. Down side: Chee, Mids, Jo and Jessic aren't in my class. We only have 2 breaks together. They will be missed. Bright side: Marketing elective isn't as demanding as Clinical trials = more sleeping in. Down side: No more free Fridays, more not-so-interesting subjects. Down side: New classmates= awkward moments? Its kinda intimidating to see my schedule... all I see are the initials of the subjects I'm going to take, so really, I don't know what kind of trip I'

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Click to enlarge. There are other photos... from cycling too. I'll just e mail them. Too many. What may have seemed like a pretty good day to anyone else was kinda off for me. I don't know what the effing hell is wrong with me. One minute I was genuinely happy and LOL-ing, then after a while... as if all of a sudden I realize that more effort has to be put into smiling. I hope I did not make anyone uncomfortable... hopefully no one noticed...I didn't want to spoil it for everyone else. Yep...I'm pretty sure no one noticed. My parents barely noticed my break down in Secondary School. I seriously think I'm bipolar. After the movie... I was pretty much close to tears. Right now, in all honesty, my hands are clammy and cold...its either that or I'm having some sort of adverse emotional reaction to the Starbucks Coffee. Lol. I need a drink amongst other things...a puff?

My Hair! Untame-able! Definately a bad hair day! Pictures from thursday! I love the wishy washy color pallette. I need a real camera! Hope the guys are up for bowling. I think the folks and I are going to see a movie tomorrow. Parental bonding... its usually kind of awkward, but sometimes it can be fun.

My arms are slightly redder and my tan line more pronounced. We went cycling etc... too tired to upload pictures... I'll do that tomorrow.