The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

Everything seem to be a test lately, this morning, my patience was tested when I came to Microbiology class and there was no class! Sigh. The next class, the teacher was testing my patience. He was talking gibberish and whatever part of it that I could understand, was totally out of point. I also learnt that I had misunderstood my classmate's text message. She wrote that the math tutorial was postponed to a certain time and well, I took it as it was postponed when what she meant was it was brought forward. Sigh, so I missed a tutorial on my worst subject. Silly me for not Reading the message properly. Oh and I also missed some sort of talk about Pharmaceutical stuff. But I didn't really regret that. I think it probably was boring. In Immunology, sigh, we had a pop quiz on a topic I never even knew existed in our syllabus (due to my skipping lectures). Moreover, I didn't get the notes. I predict that my results in that quiz will be my first flunk out this year. Sad. Lab su...

The weekend sucked. Collecting newspapers isn't really my kinda thing. For me, it's too much physical labor to be fun. It would have been better if certain things didn't happen. Sigh. Sunday wasn't any better either. Everything is so routine nowadays that I feel brain dead. Sigh, HPI test was so overrated. It was almost too easy for me to have stressed over it so much. Now I can concentrate on the subjects needing more attention. Psycho for example, the common test is on Saturday and I have to say that I have no idea whatsoever how I'm going to survive that. Sigh.. tomorrow might be psych presentation. Our commercial was pretty good but, well, the rest now lies on how we present tomorrow. Storytelling is a breeze. I got 28/30. I kinda like it. I wish everything was that easy. Well, actually it is, i just think that I need to put in more effort. I learn pretty quickly and well, I guess I've been relying on that too much... I think I need to step up to the plate a...

Sorry I have'nt been blogging so much lately... been busy. Like on thursday, the captain's ball thing was on an I got home pretty late and tired. In case you were wondering how we did...The first game we lost against seniors (I didn't play) and the second, the score was 10, 10. The third, we lost. Sadly, we keep going against the seniors who were taller and fitter than my groupmates (I was the tallest girl... that's not very tall!! ) Yesterday, my body was aching. Ugh... I guess I over did it. We did a reshoot yesterday... It was good but we had to improvise. Today... the whole day was spent preparing for my dad's b day party. It was pretty nice, simply because I met someone cool and there was karaoke.... that always seem to brighten my day! Hehehehe. Anyways, I just finished washing the neck high pile of dishes, pots and cutlery. That was my job because my mom thought that I might break or spill something if I did something else. Sigh. I am tired. I hope my parents...

I attended all lectures then played captains ball. It was pretty awesome. We even played with some B1 people. I have to admit... they played with a better attitude than the first team we played. B1.... I like B1 for reasons that I can not mention here. Hehehehe. I think they won though. After that, I had to rush to Tampines central to meet my mum. We met the rest of the "family" at raffles then went to Boat Quay to eat. Yummy right? NOPE! It was some Sumatran place. The food was not as nice as I expected. Anyway... I dragged my drowsy, bloated self to Clarke Quay, via water taxi of course. I have to admit, I have taken quite a liking to the city at night. We walked for a while then yes.. Krisha, Nica and I took a taxi back home. I sat in the front and pretended that there was a steering wheel in the passenger side. Driving... I can't wait. Pretty lights twinkled by and in less than ten minutes, we were home. Well home for the moment at least. We' re moving after Chine...

Gosh...I was just thinking.... If I had no parental guidance (or if I didn't censor myself for their sake), I think that I'll probably had gone though with every wild impulsive thing that I could think about. I would probably look like a freak! Let me paint you a picture... I would probably have wild crazy colored hair .... a split tongue (that is something I've always wanted to do!) ....crazy shoes, lots and lots of stilettos ....piercings and implants (the surgical steel type, not the silicone type!) ....a tattoo on my forearm, ankle and foot ....few colors in my closet I'd probably be in jail if I wasn't already dead with stealing and substance abuse charges like my dad was when he was young . I'd have a lot of bad self destructive habits. I guess I'm a relatively good girl in the eyes of my parents. Facades which I have to keep up tire me. WELL at least they're not around all of the time....like the saying goes, when the cats' away, the mouse ...

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This morning for some reason (probably the psychology lecture triggered something), memories from eleven years ago, creeped back into my head. I couldn't get myself out of bed and I could barely stop crying long enough to get ready for school. Sigh, that's why I missed my lecture. That's why my eyes are red. It's been a long day. I messed up on the Physiology quiz (spelling again!! ). Lab wasn't much fun. I am dead tired. I could hardly keep my eyes open to cook rice. Sigh... I need some sleep and probably some Psychological help.

Its week 2 of this year and its the second week since school reopened. Sigh... last week I found out that I somehow survived all of my tests. Phew! It was full of catching up moments with friends and school work. Uneventful apart from the fact that I have to do extra chores (unpacking and cooking). My mum's not here right now... she's coming back on Friday so home cooked meals just have to wait. Anyways, yesterday was pretty rough, I missed the math lecture because I had to clean the shared toilet (mum's chore). After the lectures, I had to go and practice with the Captainsball team that I had signed up with. We were playing against another team (everyone there was from the same class..... except pour moi!) whose members were not playing fair! Unfair! They told us the rules and they're the ones that aren't following it! I mean, I've been fouled like 3 times and the guy playing referee said nothing. My smaller teammates got pushed around a fair bit. The game had...

My cousins and some friends were tripping to go drinking... somehow, it did happen and I got away with some sort of parental consent. In no time was a pair of tables set up filled with food. It was just a few people at first but after a while, other people got a whiff of what we were doing and it became some sort of a party. For a while everything was cool. We were happily sinking deeper and deeper into an intoxicated state. Somehow, one dude, the DAD of one of my friends joined us. He was drunk and started saying some very inappropriate things to the ladies. I noticed that something was not quite right. He began touching one of the girls and trying to kiss her! I was so weirded out! Me and another girl went poolside (near where the "party" was) just to cool off (coz she was getting pretty drunk and the guys keep trying to give her more alcohol. We talked for about 15 minutes about girl stuff and went back to join the rest of the people. After a few more shots, I sensed tha...