The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

I went to the dentists office to extract one of my impacted tooth. I have to tell you that it was an ordeal to be remembered. The sad part is that I have another impacted tooth an extra tooth growing almost under my tongue. The operation took a lot out the dentist and I. The whole thing took close to two hours! Phew. Here's the X ray! The gory details are coming up soon so if you can't stand the sight of blood, I suggest you stop reading now! Ha ha ! She first tested if I was allergic to the numbing medicine, I think its called Novocaine , anyway, she injected a small amount in my arm and waited a few minutes to see if I would have an adverse reaction to it. I didn't. She then proceeded to examine the tooth and inject me with the numbing medicine. I uttered a muffled " Ouh !" with the initial jab. I was scared out of my mind! I think she made some sort of incision but I couldn't feel it .... thank goodness for that! Well anyways, the rest of the one hour and ...

Well, now, I'm here with my aunts, when I'd really rather be with my cousins. Sigh, well, at least we're going back there on Tuesday. Well, here's the deal, when we're in the Philippines, we can stay either with my cousins (on my dad's side) or with my aunts (on my mum's side) and since my aunts are at work during the day, It can get pretty boring, staying with them. (when I say we, I mean my mum and I) The problem is, when we stay with my cousins, I can't really have fun either, with my mom always hovering. I have to say that my mother can be a pain and the kill joy. Sometimes she leaves me there, and that's when the fun really gets off. Birthdays were yesterday, my mum and my cousin's that is. I can't say it wasn't fun. Yesterday we made the trip from the cuzzies to the aunties. Sigh, I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense right now, I guess I've been so swept away by whatever is happening around me that I haven't reall...

im here with my cousin in a cheap computer cafe and well, I'm hving a heck of a lot of troble typing because the keys are sticky. A lot has changes since I've left and things that I thougfht werent going to happen happened. Basically some people are in sticky messes that they could have avoided. I alwas feel a bit weird when I'm visiting my cousins, they stay at one of my parents' properties but I alwas feel a bit awkward, like I don't belong, sometimes I wish I had the same kind of camradery that they have with the people around them. I guess I am a bit jealous, they have a place where they can feel like they belong, wislt I almost alwasy seem to feel out of place where ever I am. I guess I'm just weird. The visit allows me to ponder about my life and how really unhappy I am at my habitat.

I'm home, well not really but I'm in my homeland. Anyways, I arrived on Saturday at noon. My folks are so paranoid, and my dad, he took everyone's phone numbers and asked me to keep multiple copies of them on my person. Sigh anyways, here's what's happened so far... When I arrived, my aunts and my mum were there to pick me up duh, how am I going to get anywhere in the Philippines alone there was a whole lot of traffic which was so typical. Some of the streets were flooded and well, some poor people had to trudge through the dirty water to get to wherever they wanted to go. I bet some of those people are bound to get sick. I wish something would be done to fix those kinds of things, the government needs to do something. Come evening, I played badminton with my one of my aunts and her friends for over an hour. That felt good, I haven't been participating in any sports lately. Now I'm all sore. Yesterday, I had a pretty good time with my cousin yesterday, we ...

I passed! I can't believe it! I passed all of my subjects! I am so happy! Sure My grades aren't that great, all C+s and Bs and a B+. So average. I guess this is one time, I'm actually thankful to be average, because that means I pass! I'll do better next time but now, I'm just glad that I get to take a break for a while. My Dad is booking a flight for Sunday and I am grateful that my Mum helped me pack before she left, you know, just in case. What's really weird is that everybody just knew that I was going to pass, and I didn't believe them. I guess I was just setting my self up for disappointment. You know how it is, low expectations, no disappointments. It kills my self esteem though.People who really know me say that I am a pessimist. I think that its about time I adopt a healthier outlook on life. Easier said than done. I'm going to be bringing my laptop with me so that I don't get too disconnected from the rest of the world.

I know that I haven't been blogging for a while and to tell yo the truth, its not because I had nothing to blog about, its just that well, I've been more than just a little bit lazy. Here's the low down on whats been going on, On Friday I know, I know! That was a while ago. , I went to immigration to sort out some confusion with my student pass and my dependent pass. Apparently I'm only allowed to keep one. After which I spent a little one on one time with my old man, which was nice because he always tends to spoil me. When I got home I found out that my mother had rearranged my bedroom furniture and went through my things in an attempt to organise! This made me so furious! I was so VIOLATED! I mean, here I am a 19 year old individual whose only private space in the whole house invaded by none other than her mother! I was so cross with her. I got over it by hauling the carpet out of the room and moving furniture around! Anyways, the weekends flew past. I've been ha...

I have lead a very sinful existence these past few days, see, my Dad came back from his business trip on Saturday and brought back some enrobed chocolates from Belgium or wherever and I just couldn't help myself from finishing the whole box. There's gluttony for you. Its the school holidays and I can't seem to help myself from pigging out or being lazy! I have gained a couple of pounds since Thursday. Sigh... I better get active. That's sloth.

The exams ended yesterday and well, all I did today was to catch up on all of the sleep I've been missing out on. I feel a bit guilty for not going to my friends' sort of farewell get together yesterday. I couldn't really go because I have some parental issues. Sad. I really wanted to go. Anyways I got another piercing, a helix piercing. It's so cool because now I have a pair on my left ear. I'm thinking getting the whole of my rim covered like Camryn Manheim. Can't wait to get another. I probably wont get one anytime soon. I think my parents are going to freak, they don't exactly know. Maybe I should get a piercing that isn't very visible, like a smiley or a frownie. It looks like this: Hmm, I will, as soon as I find a decent shop. I just took an IQ test and I've discovered that I am getting dumber. What was once a score of 132 became 129. Sigh, how can that be?! Just what I need, a brain which is incapable of getting smarter. Sigh.