The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

I'm at my cousins house and well ... I'm pretty glad that I'm able to use the computer again.... sigh... it's been so long... Anyways... here's what's new, I have a new piercing and It's not on my ear. A friend did it for me on Sunday and so far, no one above the age of 25 knows about it. To all of the adults in the house, it's just another pimple near my lip. Mwahahaha . It got me a little scared though because the piercing did become tight at one point in time and well... I had to change the place holder. I was so shaking in the process. Anyways... this is my first piercing with the needle and it was surprisingly painless! But then again... that might just be because of the ice. It was so freaking surreal! I mean, yes... well the lip is pretty thick but it was fairly quick...like ten seconds. And the needle...(hypodermic) was fairly big! Anyways, now that I've grossed you out enough, lets talk about less gross things. Okay... so, so far I'v

I'm here, not quite the other side of the world, but it seems like I'm on another planet. There is always a stark contrast between here and there. It just reminds me what life would be like if I'd stayed. Well, a lot of things have happened but nothing so exciting to blog about. I just missed being here, in the Philippines. Everything has changed so much over the past what... three months. It leaves things for introspection. Ooh... ye.. I don't know if this is well known but the Philippine first runner up for Ms World Philippines has just made tremendous grammatical errors on the question and answer portion of the pageant and guess what... she still won. It was painful to watch someone being completely confident with the delivery of the answer while making horrendous errors in the language used. The thing on every one's minds is why did she even bother trying to answer in erroneous English when she could speak perfectly in Tagalog. I am pretty ashamed to call her Mi

My BABY!! Niece, new niece in fact...Just days old...I haven't even met her yet. I have to say, she looks nothing like my cousin, she's sooo adorable no? I just hope no one will put me to work changing her diapers! I'm going to be her godmother... whatever that means.

Tomorrow... I shall spend about two and a half hours soaring above the clouds in a tiny claustrophobic airplane. Wheeeeee! I'm all smiles... I need to get to bed, my flights kinda on the early side. See you on the other side!

Ooh ye... I have to get this down... Last week my dad got me a new camera!! Out of the sheer blue heavens. It was so unlike him... usually I have to ask for something like that. he also got me a harddrive, just for kicks. Sigh... he gets me a really cool digital camera that costs what... almost $500 and he cant get me a good guitar for half the price!! I'm not so wound up about it of course.. a cool camera is still a cool camera.... I just wish... DADDY!! Sigh...

"Dim the lights please... Cue the Drumroll... Temasek Polytechnic has voted for their favorites in this competition and the results are in this envelope. Ron, Please stand.. Randy said that your performance was not horrible. Paula thought that there were some colorful moments. Simon commented that you did not put in enough effort. He said that there was nothing fantastic about your performance. The Applied Sciences School has decided and has agreed with.... I'm sorry Ron but you'll have to wait a little bit longer for the results. ___Break___ Ron was standing on the stage, a spotlight showed her every quiver and highlighted the tension in her body. Ryan stood the center of the stage and said to the audience "You have decided ...and agreed with Paula... Ron is staying for one more semester... you may sit down. A look of relief and joy washed over her face as she realized that she was going to stay... she also appeared somewhat weary. It was apparent that the competiti

Is there something wrong with me? I feel like I'm doing drugs or something. I really don't get it! First I'm up there, jubilant... then...Crash! Bipolar Much?! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am trying to master the art of guitar. Phew! I so should have done this in secondary school, when everyone else was picking up the guitar. Calluses on fingertips. Back aches from playing while sitting down. People say I'm too ambitious with what I'm trying to play on the guitar. I say, wait and see. I'll get it eventually . -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I hate that I wasted so much time with my folks trying to make me do things that I don't want to do. When I was younger, they forced me to: -move here to Singapore -learn how to play the piano -learn how to play the damn Electrone -do ballet! -BE LITTLE MISS PERFECT I think they still haven't q

I went to the chalet on Tuesday. It was surprisingly awkward but I had an okay time. David Choi ... you are awesome! I guess I'm kinda stupid. I just took the earring off of a fresh cartilage piercing and guess what happened! I am having trouble putting it back in!! I should know by now that cartilage springs back to its original shape pretty easily especially when the piercing is new. Sigh. Ouch! The earring is halfway in. Almost got it! I had the weirdest dream. Three guys, two acquaintances and one friend came into my room and woke me up. They were in a band and they wanted to consult with me about the music and the album cover. Okay, why is this strange... here's why. - I don't know this friend very well... ie. we're not close. - I've only met the other band members once. - I haven't seen those three since 2006! Oh yeah, my condolences go out to you. You know who you are. Sorry you couldn't come to the chalet. :(

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||||| 42% Schizoid |||||||||||||| 58% Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 78% Antisocial |||||||||||||||||| 78% Borderline |||||||||||||||| 62% Histrionic |||||||||||| 46% Narcissistic |||||||||||| 42% Avoidant |||| 14% Dependent |||| 18% Obsessive-Compulsive |||| 14% Take Free Personality Disorder Test personality tests by similarminds.com Apparently I have Schizotypal tendencies. According to the test I am suposedly have the diminished ability to form close relationships. Individuals with this disorder often appear odd or peculiar. I don't know how accurate that is but I don't think that's good. Do I need to see a Psychologist? Gulp! Its actually quite close to schizophrenia but minus the hallucinations and delusions.

Its March. Its the Holidays. Its Saturday. Somehow just acknowledging the date is irritating . Yes.. I am in a bad mood. I hate the monthly visits of a certain uninvited visitor. I am sick. All I want to do is sleep. Blah and Whaa. Wiped out. Tired. Sometimes I just wish... Sigh.