The Anatomy of My Thoughts = Rowan-ism

It took three hours a whole lot of thinking and a bucket load of courage... but finally I got a TATTOO! :D Yes people, I finally did it, and it hurts. Not a lot, it was tolerable. I think my cousins have a video or something somewhere... Bwahahaha... its my birthday present to myself.

Today is my 22nd birthday and well... its been a while since I've celebrated my birthday. It was nice to see all of those facebook posts and smiling faces of my aunts as the wished me happy birthday. I have to say... 22's not as scary as it all seems. This year I know, is a year for change. A year for transformation, this is when I graduate hopefully and when I find a job please please let that be soon and when I gain more independence from the often choking grasp of my parents. It seems that when change is knocking energetically at my door I feel that the last thing I need is change. Its as if life as I know it is about to turn on its head and well... I liked life the way it was. All I hope for is that I will not merely survive the new set of trials and tribulations coming my way but conquer it. I wish that this stage in my life will be one that I will enjoy as much or even more than the last. - That of course is not my birthday wish. That, is a secret! Although, if you stic

Here I am in the motherland. The place of my birth and the place where Starbucks costs a mere $5. Ah how sweet it is to be in a place where people can understand Tagalog. Its nice to be reunited with old friends, hear stories and just laugh. Pity my dear ole mom is breathing down my neck. I think that getting away from her for 2 months made her miss me - or rather miss nagging at me. Kidding. Anyways, I just found out that my house is no longer my house. It will belong to the bank if and when my father is unable to pay that one last time by May. It scares me shitles to be without a home. I mean... that house is the only real place which I was able to imagine that I could have a future there. Money is a problem. Then again, money is always a problem... to everyone, everywhere. I hope I get to stay with my cousins on my birthday, hopefully, without parental supervision. I love my folks, but really, I think that its about time that they give me a little more space. I am turning 22 after a

Please forgive me for beimg extremely superficial but... hey, these hormones can get a little crazy sometimes. Glee has a particularly good looking hot antagonist Mark plays Puck. He sings, dances and when he smiles.... ah. Well see for yourself. Msg me online if you want a Glee episode! Winks! Images from Marksallingmusic.com Notice how Wentworth Miller, Channing Tatum and Mark Salling all have the same hairstyle? I'm a sucker for a skinhead. :P Oh and don't you dare assume that I watch Glee because of this steamy sir, hell no! That show has awesome music and a whole lot of in built irony in the wisecracks. Its my kind of show. Love you too YAS! <3

You haven't been seeing much of me lately and for that, my dear readers, I apologize. Those of you who know me... know that over the past month, I've spread myself too thin and my obligations and responsibilities have been tugging at me every which way. Over the last leg of my poly life, I've felt like giving up, I've felt a huge sense of loss, I've felt the pressure of having too much to do and too little time to do it and for that, I've been overwhelmed. Perhaps one of the things in which I have a very strong opinion about is what has happened to a dear friend of mine, where a perfectly good friendship was compromised by miscomunication, gossip, heresay and just plain misunderstandings. What a waste. Friendships like those only come about a few times out of a persons lifespan. It is really quite unfortunate because, although I don't particularly see the other party as a friendly one, I was willing to put aside my apprehensions for the sake of my friend. I