Grieving for the living

The only way I can describe how I feel right now is grief.

It could be over the loss of a special familiarity with someone. Yes that person is still alive and around, available for you to talk to but things aren't the same. Conversations are the shadow of what they used to be. Initially its easy to pretend that things are going to be the same, but reality strikes when you realize that what is lost cannot be regained, that leaves you wanting for more. I feel this way about a lot of people.

I feel grief over the people who are slowly losing function of their bodies. They are haunted by things they used to enjoy doing but now can only relive in their heads. Seeing people participate in the things he/she loves while feeling envious and nostalgic. Leaving them hoping for the discovery of a cure within their lifetimes.

Life is cruel sometimes. It gives us something we don't know we wanted until it is taken away.

I suppose we just take on the world with our new normal, and as time passes, the things we miss get buried under the tangles of our day to day problems, issues that demand our attentions now. Do we miss them less, or are we just distracted?

I we should all be grateful. The point is we got the privilege of experiencing these things in the first place; that first date with a special someone, the shared jokes between friends, being able to dance on stage etc. and the magic of it all.

Just keep swimming guys. Make memories.

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