is this real? is this over?

I think that my parents are separating.

I can't say that this comes as a shock to me. It really doesn't. I have said this many times before and I will say this again... All I want is for both of them to be happy. I hate that they make each other miserable... I can understand both sides though.

I just didn't realize that it would suck so much. I mean how could the two people that I love the most in the entire planet make each other so miserable? I don't blame myself. I blame both of them.

They're both so blind. Like... I can se how my Mum's snippy-ness and nagging can bring someone like my Dad to the edge of their sanity... And I can see how my Dad's lies and broken promises could crush my Mum's esteem. That added on with the fact that she's a smart woman trapped at home as a housewife could drive her bonkers.

I just feel really miserable right now. I wish that I could help them resolve their issues. Too bad they think that its better to "shelter" me from all of this.

Im just hoping that one day... If and when I do decide to Marry, I hope that my marriage would not end up like my parents.

Actually... I do love them to bits but well... I really hope that I end uop nothing like them - or at least only inherit the best of both of their personallities.

Thank the gods that this is only happoening now. I could not imagine how I would have reacted if this had happened 4 to 6 years ago. I think surely Iwould have been tempted to do something stupid.

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